i had a talk with my dad today. it was a first talk we've ever had that was actually a father son talk. and i kinda teared halfway cos i was really touched that my dad took time out to talk to me. like. its one of the times he actually talked to me about what i want to do, about what i think bout stuff. like, it was about me. not my grades, not my behavious, it was about me. and i was really kinda touched.
and it really made me think about how average i really am. i've always thought myself as special. but like, i'm not as rich as paul, not as smart as suraj, not as hardworkin as zl, not as good lookin as hans, not as athletic as wyner, not as strong as victor, not as buff as danielkao, not as tall as half of the ppl in pj, not as good at lit and lingxin, not as funny as ger, not as annoyin as wong (at times, but in a good way), not as retarded (in the funny lovable way) as zara and kityee, not as chill as jiali. i'm really just all that average. actually, i really think i'm too average. thats the thing. i'm special. because i'm too average. and i realise also that, this is not really a bad thing. at least i'm not as fat as chris tang, not as slow as khalis (but i still love him), not as stupid as i dunno, most ppl? not as ugly as most ppl in pj, and not as hopeless in character as you know who. and i think, i really have to come to accept that i'm average. i look at some ppl, at how they are so much in denial that they dun wanna believe how practically everyone hates him or her, and i really really think that if i continue to believe i am all that special, i will be as hopeless as them.
so cynric. today is the day u realise the 'Joe' in you. and then embrace this 'Joe' to be the best you can be.
thanks to my dad, i feel so
inspired.
