today when i was on my way home from town. i was thinkin. when i was bathin, i was thinking. the conclusion that i've come to is, i dun think people really know me.
ha. i think everyone seems to have the illusion that i'm a happy, cheerful talk alot of crap person. cos so many times i've been told that " hey cynric, u know, i've never seen you angry before? " like freakin 6541321651 million times. but like, i'm always kinda not happy. haha. i just don't show it. i believe in lessening others' burden and bearin more of it myself. isn't that better? it makes life easier for everyone. heh. also, i realised, i'm not a very funny guy. people always say "omg cynric ur dam funny" BUT I AM NOT. i'm only funny when there are people around me for me to interact with. honestly i think if i'm put with one fren, just alone, i dun think he or she will find me very funny. which means, i'm not good at joking. i'm good at insulting. and thats not good at all. sigh.
i'm a weird boy. haha. and the biggest myth about me is that i like being around people. the heck. i love love love love love love being LEFT alone. i dun like being alone cos i will feel, i dunno, alone? ha. but i like to hang out with a couple of friends and just, well, fade to the background. people think i'm like the joker. but thats cos everyone else around me just sucks at joking so badly i seem good. i dunno. i guess, maybe, just maybe, i'm quite a loserish guy. just that people dun see it. hah.
but hey. DO NOT, i emphasize, DO NOT think i am emoing or feeling sad or anything. i was just thinking alot. hard to believe eh? i think. hahahah. another myth, i actually do do alot of thinking. hahah. and all these stuff above, are just thoughts flooding my brain so i just want to get it out. again, i AM NOT emoing or feeling sad.
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OMG I FORGOT TO ADD IN, i was listenin to this song in my ipod. i know its a dam old song but i suddenly like it alot alot alot alot alot alot. haha
I Promise - Stacy Orrico
Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone,
Will i be that one you need?
Will i do all my best to
To protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will i be the one thats by your side?
Chorus
Will i be there when you call me
In the middle of the night?
Will i keep the rain from fallin
Down into your life?
I promise, I promise,
I promise I promise I will
Will i take tender care of you?
Take your darkest night
And make it bright for you?
Will i be there to make you strong
And to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will i be the one thats there to hold?
Chorus
Bridge
And i love you more everyday
And nothing will take that love away
When you need, when you need someone
I promise i'll be there for you
There for you ooh yeah
Chorus
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TATA
