I miss hans. I miss zl. I miss 07A02 (except Jamie). I miss the AC ballers. I miss my primary school pals. I miss Hsin of sec 2-3. I miss Steven Han of sec 3. I miss the old 'Trust 4'. I miss the old Joy & Dayl. I miss the nice talks with zara lingxin kityee that we had when we went out last year. I miss people i can truely talk to. I miss people that can show me a smile, a REAL smile. I miss people who can just come over to my house, or to the pool, or just to starbucks, and sit there with me, and just talk the day away. i miss truly good company. i miss real people while i'm in the midst of a world of hypocrisy and artificiality. The fraudulence of the people around me seep into my bines and creep the shit out of me. I miss being the old me, where i can do what i wanna, where ever i wanna, where i was truly happy and bouncing around, without worryin about the judgemental kids around me, or that they might get the wrong idea.
It's my fault anyway. I retained and fell into the hands of this farce, ridiculous rendition of what is said to be human beings. With the exception of one or two PEOPLE (meaning they actually are people, not mannequins of materialism, kiddy love and immaturity), i'm with a bunch of sickening actors. I need to just stay out in the background, even though its the oddest place for me to be but its safer than the spotlight this time.
I can't wait for A's to be over. I NEED TO MEET EVERYONE THAT I MISSED. That's if i can find myself again, beneath all the shit thats been smeared on by the surrounding shits now.
