few days back while stoni...., i mean listening attentively in class, phyll sent me an sms just askin how was my day. i was kinda surprised, yet, kinda happy. its quite cool thinkin, " hey man these are pals i've had for like, forever." and we're still so close! thats pretty amazing.
i dunno, i guess, life really would suck without a group of people called friends. When i say friends, i meant the word friends, not any other superficial redition of it. its really comforting to know no matter what happens u've got a group of people you can count on.
like today, brandon koh suddenly called me askin me to go out for a drink to talk and chill. like. comon we havent really talked for a while and yet everytime we do its like we're best friends forever. sigh. i miss ac so much.
i'm just ranting. dunno why. maybe cos today's schl sucked. or maybe cos i was slightly moody the whole day.
i wish my phone would vibrate now and get some random sms askin how i was. i guess i just need a hug, or someones hand to hold, or just someone to be with. not in the "i need a girlfriend way" tho. its more of the, "i just need a friend now" kinda way. if that makes sense.
class sucks. i hardly talk anymore. i dont feel cynric-ish. i need to start crappin. but i cant. cos i have to study. cos i have to grow older and mature and be more responsible for my studies, my life, and the people i influence. i cant be a mad man anymore cos i know i will make ppl in class like wong go mad and he's gonna do badly for A's if he goes mad. SIGH.
i wanna be the childish kid. but i cant cos i'm THE RETAINEE, the oldest guy. why did i retain. why did i just realise these now.
LIFE SUCKS. back to doin homework. sigh.
thank god for the fray and james morrison, helpin me get through my gp and maths and econs hw.
its people like him that make my life better. best pals are hard to find. ZL GET OUT OF ARMY NOW. i sound gay. not good.
