okay. today i had g.p. and lit.
i have shocked myself today. because i decided against my usual decision, to pick the question " Choice is always desirable. Discuss" or somehting liddat, and chose " Discuss the appeal and value of cyber games" instead.
SIGH I AM SOOO REGRETTING NOWWWW. even though it seems so much easier, and i have all the contextual knowledge and evidence to provide, i hated that essay so muchhhh. i dont feel anything while writing it. it seemed so bland, so systematic, so ordinary. damnit i better get AT LEAST a good grade so i wont feel bad for doing sucha a shitty topic. SIGGGHHHHHHH
at least i learnt not to EVER pick something i dont have the 'mojo' for. haha.
oh and lit was... KINDA okay. i felt like i understood the question and i could kinda answer. but lit is lit and i never know if i can even pass even if i felt like i wrote not that bad. SIGHHH. plus grace seemed sad over her paper, and she has always been my marker on whether the paper was do-able or like, able to score. i dunno. when she feels she does badly, i feel super insecure bout my essay too. SHITTY. i hope sas is lenient, and jings will be influential in helpin me get a higher grade (:
SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i just counted and i have FREAKIN 11 essays to write for CTs. they are not even complete A level format i think. oh my goodness. and its excluding AQ which is kinda like essay. just write until hand break. i cant believe i'm about to say this, but i think maybe maths is not that bad. because there's no essay. haha.
but i like writing. i hate studying. but i have to do both. and score. and study. and study. and study. well thats how my whole j2 life is gonna be i guess. my goodness, i realise i dont even know whats going on with the j1s, like the wannabe 'in' ppl or the wannabe hotties and wannabe scandals. (notice all the wannabes, cause no one in pj can be 'in', hot, or scandalous. they just try) how the heck does berhan find time to hunt the j1s down man. CHARIS YOU ARE MY SOLE CONNECTION TO THE J1s please update/intro me thanks HAHA. at least now i am finally liberated from my stupid and totally irrelevant 'pimp' nickname. i am now officially not "the guy who knows all the girls" YAY. shows i'm less gay. which is good.
i feel so. disconnected. so detached from society.
omfffffffg.
i am becoming boey kim cheng.
screw pj.
