What i'm about to mention, might offend you. but hardly anyone knows bout this blog's existence, which is part of the reason i'm not afraid to rant. plus the fact that it exists for me to voice out what i feel needs to be heard, but afraid to admit that i am of this particular opinion, afraid to be condemned by it.
oh well.
screw public opinion. i am who i am. who is to define me. i am by my own definitions.
yet hesitation in my heart is what made me use the smallest font available, hoping it turns people off, limiting the people who would actually waste time and effort to read the ramblings of an individual. who is absolutely insignificant in the face of the Almighty, society.
here goes...........
why do people like to club?
that's what i asked myself in like, sec 2.
so i tried. and it was awesome. it was the best nights i ever had.
or so i thought.
when i look back now, was i having fun?
yes. but not because clubbin was fun...
it was cuz clubbing provided the opportunity for me to indulge in a seperate alternate reality.
a reality where people cant see you, where your voice is drowned out, where everyone is orchestrated to the beat of the music.
to conformity.
it was an escape.
foolishness. mere futility.
it gives some of us the chance to unleash the beastial, primitive, lustful side of ours, all under the cover of alcohol. are we really drunk? do we really not know what we're doing? or issit what we want to be?
or is it just us not wanting to control ourselves? to let ourselves be seen as who we really are, as who we hate to be seen as in the public eye?
it is my realization after years of denial. after tryin to hide the fact that i do club. because honestly, deep in my heart, i know the reason behind such an atrocious waste of time and monetary possessions, and i'm deeply, deeply ashamed of it.
in the end, those who resort to this activity are merely unable to face who they really are due to the fact they want to appear as who others want them to be.
i was a fool.
but people are entitled to their own opinions. i embrace and accept this fact.
thus i believe, you are either a fool, or a helpless soul stranded in denial, forever forced to drift in a state of limbo, never learning from your flaws, never growing.
what i believe may be wrong to you.
but it will always be right to me.
till someone proves it to be wrong.
peace.
